I think of human organisms a lot like chemical elements. Warping, shifting, reacting over time. Yesterday I had a small epiphany that unraveled some of my feelings towards someone I am no longer able to share a bond with, and why that is so. You see, I find myself a rather peculiar person. I have many weird and wonderful interests and worldviews, and I’m not shy in pursuing them. Likewise, I enjoy attracting other oddballs. However, due to the nature of our differences, these particularly curious bonds naturally do not always work out. Which is normal, and will undoubtedly continue as a trial and error process! But my analogy is one of chemical reactions.
It seems that sometimes when you mix two peculiar, unexplored elements together there’s always a chance they’ll react in an unexpected way. Perhaps the chemicals are compatible and well-suited to bond. Or perhaps they’re more destructive and volcanic combined. Perhaps your reaction doesn’t even happen instantly – it may bubble up quietly over time before fizzling and spilling over the test tube until it can no longer be contained. There’s nothing you can humanly do to stop two naturally-occurring compounds with such vastly different properties from repelling each other, no matter how suitable they once appeared.
But every once in a while you’ll get a harmonious reaction, something that works. Perhaps even one that creates something even better and stronger altogether. And that’s the gamble of nature. It is all in the name of experimentation, and the results are fascinating and novel nevertheless.
But even though our particular bond became more destructive than binding, the momentum created by our explosion as resistant cosmic entities will continue to lace our lives with passion, wonder and magic. For truths have been uncovered that have opened our minds. And while we may be impermeable at this moment in time and space, it means nothing about our value as separate organisms. We are both just as scintillating, unique and precious as we always were. And I hope nothing more than for my chemical contradiction to discover the compound that bonds with his natural qualities in a perfect, chemical, harmony.
Art by David R Probin, titled “Visions”